reflection

sometimes, i watch movies,
and am the bad guy.
i blow up ships and do that jump actors do
when they're running away from an awfully close explosion.

i read books, and am scared
of myself.
the vixen with the long hair,
green eyes hiding her fear,
passion turning each page.

i can see myself stretched across a canvas,
bright red orange yellow
fire.

but when i look in the mirror,
i only see what i really am.
sad.